Took anti depressants for 10 years
Hi. I took anti depressants for 10 years. It started after my 12th when I was 18 or 19. I was a topper at school and exceptional student. I faced a lot of beating from my mother and her stares still give me a fright. She still sometimes beats me. I'm 32 now and after fighting a lot with medicines. I gave up on taking medicines. I don't think I have a mental disorder but I was made to believe that through various means. I always listened to my parents since childhood and did only what they said and believed everything that came out of their minds. They are abusive and I don't feel comfortable around my father. They have kept me in chains and they still intend to. I am 32 now and not free to the point I can't go out, they have always pointed fingers at me. I took therapy ND life changed but they now don't like that therapist and don't want me to see one. They got me married at the age of 21. I have always been mistreated. They gave me no other option in life but to get married and I didn't know what was happening..wasn't aware as I was on heavy medications. They got me married and didn't tell my in-laws that I take a medicine.and they rejected me. They don't let me keep friends either. Never have. They tell me I'm slipping through their fingers. But I made a friend who I hardly Met more like a penalty and he guided me. Life was good for a while when I broke away but it's Neverending. I'm in the depths of darkness again since I started my medicine. It's a constant trauma . I somehow begged them in that period where I was feeling better and off medicines to let me study further. They refused but I didn't give up. After that they didn't let me go out to work or support me in any way. My father even brought cigarettes for me. I have so many aspirations like to travel to work to have a normal life which everyone deserves but they are giving me trauma and new obstacles on my path. There was a time when. I didn't have a slipper to wear and after begging a lot they got me one. I don't deserve such trauma. Noone does. I don't wanna fight anymore. I just need my peace. Please help.
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