Cheating - I am a 30 yr old woman

1 year ago

I am a 30 yr old woman. I have 90% in b.ed, completed my masters with 55% unemployed and no savings, completely traumatized by lies of my father throughout my life.
I think i have been manipulated by my father intentionally so that i fail in my career and be forever dependant on him so that he can abuse me forever. I also want to claim my 4lac lic policy which my father kept telling me he opened an lic under my name decade ago. Now he tells me i have no such lic and its under his name . He is the owner and not me. I feel betrayed as then i find he lied to me to make me feel i have some financial support and i can go soft at my career. I feel cheated.
He also misguided me throughout my graduation and masters that dirty people go to private sector jobs and as i was an introvert and trusted my father i never interviewed for any private job. When i needed pocket money i use to ask father. I feel i was misguided by my father intentionally and was taken advantage of my innocence to keep me dependant to him. So many years have gone by i feel he guided me wrong to ruin my career.
In 2022 i secretly gave an interview and got selected for content writer job and i did job for 4 months. I did not tell my salary to him and he trick me and took my bank passbook and printed it without my permission to know my salary. He also encourage me to leave the job as its useless and i left the job after 4 months which i regret . Because when he tells me to leave job he is nice to me and convince me well. But soon i realized it was again a trick as after that again when i went to him for pocket money he behave as if m useless and a failure and then give me the needed money.
I never understood the prep depth for govt service as till a long time i was told by father that people submit blank answer script so that someone inside fill answer right and submits. So i did that few times , gave blank answer script that father will manage to do what he says to me he will help me pass the govt job i just need to sit and fill the roll number right. It never happened. And years went by i feel i wasted my years believing every word of my father but all are false. And i feel he said it intentionally so that i never succeed in the exam.

Today i am 30, unemployed with no savings . My father did not even saved money for my marriage . No lic . No fd. No job. I am empty handed like i am an orphan. I will start my career all again. I feel this much delay happened completely because of my father's wrong guidance. And i feel he did it intentionally to see me in this position today.

Today i want to claim my lic which he told me is mine for a decade . If he cannot give me lic, i want punishment for lying to me for so long intentionally to misguide me to trust him so that he can carry on misguiding me as much as he can. Please suggest me what steps can i take here.