Mental Abuse and restraining order

8 months ago

I'm a 22 y/o girl living in Meerut Uttar Pradesh. I have extremely mentally and emotionally abusive father. He's always trying to find very small reasons to fight and insult and scream at me and my mother. Verbal abuse, lies and gaslighting is constant. My mother and I usually stay quiet but whenever we try to speak up for ourselves, he resorts to physical abuse and doesn't let us even open our mouth. We've been tolerating this for years now and it keeps getting worse. I'm trying to look for a job to become financially independent so I can leave but I know he'll abuse me so much and force me to stay by whatever means. Every day he mistreats me, I think about suicide because I've had enough of his nonsense. I know he'll never let me leave his toxic abusive prison and it scares me to my core. He's very manipulative so I don't think I'll ever get any help from anyone. I don't know what to do I hate my life because of him.