Need help

3 years ago

I am 17 years old. I had so overprotective upbringing till 17. Before now, I never realized that all this is making me so dependent and weak. Even, I faced bullying and mental torture in my higher secondary school time for 2 years... Because of which my psychological health became worst... I badly seeked for help from my parents for improving my psychological health.. But they were not there for me.. They refused to gave me treatment from specialized mind healing centre. Now, I am completely shocked after understanding the fact that on the one hand.. Till the age 15 they have upbringed me in the very overprotective manner... And when i actually needed protection... Then they were not there for me.. I have realized that my parent's perspective is not right for me and can never be right for me.. I have faced a lot in my past bcz of my parent's perspective.. Till last month, I never defended myself but from last month I defended myself and stood for myself.. My mother behaves well with me now.. I stabled my mind... Situation is quite under control.. But my father still hurts me emotionally... Now the present external situation is not that worst but in my mind... I m really not able to carry this that why my parents did this.. 17 years 4 months mental and emotional torture can't be cured through their 1 month's light behavior... I want justice.. I want to move out in this age.. But everyone just say me that " if in present moment your parents are behaving good with you.. So y u don't you stay only here? " Look, I m really not able to carry, I m having sucidal thoughts.. So why not I move out from my parental house in this 17 years old age? After that torture, I think I should have Right.. They are behaving well with me bcz I defended myself But why I needed too..!? Is there any ngo for help? I want to stay there until I turn 18. After that I will take complete responsiblity of mine...If yes.., then can you please give me ngo details or help me to reach over there?